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Sunday, September 12, 2010

September Twelfth…

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Here it is Sunday night already at 8:30pm and I am still trying to have quiet to catch up on an entry since Friday…

Friday was off to work to set the ad… more taking down than going up… went to lunch… open boxes… talk with supervisor too much…

Came home.. tried to relax by playing facebook games but they just keep freezing up the computer, so have stopped playing them again… son1 and girlfriend went out to dinner and watched Killers at her house… and we watched Killers with Ashton Kutcher at our house, lol… and then probably watched an episode of Emergency…

Friday I ate: vitamins, green tea tablet, water… lunch~chimichanga, yogurt, cola… BBQ chips… dinner~baked potato, chili, veggies, cheese, lemonade… two smores…

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Saturday hubby was up early, I slept a bit longer… Emotions were a bit high on Saturday again, or maybe it was just me… Hubby made breakfast after I told him it was OK… Then we had showers and were getting dressed for the day when I lost my mind… Or maybe I just wanted to fight with someone and picked hubby forgetting he won’t fight with me… The more I yell, the quieter he gets… I was feeling discouraged as I am trying to have faith and keep a good frame of mind and go with a plan… and hubby wants to pick the worst scenario and go there and put him self down when it comes to finding a job and deciding he is not qualified for the job when that is up to the people doing the hiring… Anyway we don’t hold grudges and aren’t mad at each other just the situation and the way we each handle it is so different…

And hubby and I aren’t strangers to losing jobs… Thirteen years ago, we decided to move here from the Bay area as our apartment rent was going up to a higher price then our house payment is now… So I sent tons of resumes out to random companies in the area til one called and hired hubby… He moved here a month before us, staying with family while I packed up the apartment with son1 and son2… We barely pulled up with the moving truck when Sears called and wanted me to come in and interview for a position here… Unfortunately the company that hired hubby let him go a few weeks later as the owners didn’t know what each other was doing and who hired hubby and changed the positions and told hubby he wasn’t qualified for the changes… But I figured hey it got us to Fresno… So hubby was on unemployment and just as it ran out got hired at his current job that he was just let go from… Six years ago my supervisor job was eliminated and there were no supervisor positions in the store at the time, nor full time… so as I wanted to leave for the day and plan my next move, they wouldn’t let me leave as they were creating a position for  me in shoes still at full time but with a major pay cut, but hey I still kept my full time with medical and all my vacation benefits…

But yet that was part of my grumpiness too with hubby’s job loss… and that my ex is now on disability for the next six weeks with two hernia surgeries coming up this week… my ex has had quite a few jobs and used unemployment quite a few times and been on disability just as much… I have worked for 30 years, only being off for three times: son1, son2 and son3… My job has seen me through college, bankruptcy, two marriages, three boys, buying a house and everything in between… I did quit once for my first marriage and son1 being born, but that only lasted five months and they hired me back on the spot and since I was gone less than a year, it was as if I was never gone, as I kept my anniversary date…

So after my outburst with hubby I went out and washed both cars, hosed off the driveway, hosed off the front porch, watered the plants, threw away the front door mat, changed out the decorations to some fall ones… when I finally went back inside, they boys, even son1,  had done all their chores, cleaned their rooms, did their homework… I was like, how long was I outside… guess they knew Mom was in a mood and best to be on my good side…

Hubby was on the phone with internet people again as the DSL was down, so he got that back up and running and was doing more job search and filling out applications… partly it’s frustrating as there are so many job sites that want you to sign up, that we’re signing up with too many… and then a lot promise things but after you fill out, get to the part where they want money… ummm NO… and then we are getting offers for jobs in our email but they are all automated replies for insurance sales, or work from home, or start your own business opportunities… plus going to the different job sites hubby has applied to a couple of jobs twice since they advertise at the different sites but the sites each look different so you don’t always see the company name til the end of the application…

Son2 went with son1 to the grocery store and Walmart and son1 got lunch stuff for two weeks and dog food and tooth paste and such that he needed… then son1 was off to see girlfriend as she has a cold and has not been feeling well. so he took her something to eat and our Netflix move Date Night with Steve Carell… we haven’t seen it yet… We watched Wild Wild West with Will Smith, then an episode of Emergency then I fell asleep at 9pm, I was Tired… Hubby and son3 watched Jaws 3, I woke up for the ending so we could go to bed…

Saturday I ate: breakfast~scrambled eggs, three toast w/jelly, chocolate milk… popcorn, water… dinner~two chili dogs, green beans, mixed veggies, broccoli, cauliflower, cola…

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Today I was off to work… no ad to set, so got to stock men’s dress and athletic shoes all morning… went to lunch… opened boxes…

Came home, son1 was off with girlfriend at the mall… checked email, fixed dinner, got the boys in the shower early… watched Wimpy Kid… read with son3 for his AR reading for school… finally snuck off to my room to work on this entry for the last hour… hubby has his unemployment phone interview in the morning… It’s almost 9:30 and the boys need to have lights out for bed for school tomorrow… and I have to get up extra early this week as I go into work even earlier… If we can go to sleep as it was hot yesterday and today, about 94 and we have not turned on the air conditioner… we have all the fans going and the windows open though… It’s still 86 right now… but each day this week is supposed to be cooler…

Sunday I ate: vitamins, green tea tablet, water… lunch~chimichanga, yogurt, cola… boys were eating Lays potato chips, I had my hand in the bag… water… dinner~beans and rice, it was so good so I had two bowls, water…

Happy Journaling…

7 comments:

betty said...

hugs to you all; it is such a stressful time with so many with this economy; remember you guys are working together and on the same team and try to be supportive of each other........though I know it is so hard at times........

betty

Lisa said...

Another prayer came through for your family today Linda from another one of our warriors!! I am excited to see what door God will open for your husband. Sending you lots of hugs! The prayer of agreement works good in these situations. Just take a moment when you get a chance and hold hands with hubby and get in agreement together that God is going to open that one special door and lead your man right to it. I've seen God answer for us so many times when we did that. It's extra powerful when two or more gather together in Jesus name. There is no stopping Him.
Lisa

Bookncoffee said...

FB games on Frontierville keeps freezing on me a lot of the time. Very frustrating. I think my computer is pretty old, but I've upgraded the latest in "flashability" lol. I hope the week is easier for you and less frustrating.
Sonya

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

I hope this new week brings some good things and hopefully hope for a new job for your hubby too. I've heard from friends that a good way to get a nice job is to work for a temp agency. Many will hire you full time if they like the temp work you do. Just a thought. Hope all goes well too with the unemployment. Take care and hang in there !

Cindi said...

sending ((hugs))...been there done that...no stranger here...praying for a job for hubby....hang in there!!!

slj said...

I can imagine how frustrating it must be filling out job applications and then finding out what they are for..
The internet is a wonderful thing for the most part, but it is really screwed up in other aspects.
You are hanging in there wonderfully:)
Sheri

Martha said...

::Sigh:: It's no wonder you have been feeling grumpy. What you are going through with hubby's job loss is a huge thing, and trying to find a new one even harder I think. I'm praying for your family and hope your hubby will find something soon. ((Hugs))