Saturday Wallows...

You guys are great! Thanks for all the words of wisdom... I was still way grumpy this morning and had no patience for hubby, realized it is my grumpy week and breathing is dangerous for him right now... I have succumbed to the idea that I will stay in shoes... Hubby's schedule is changing again next month and my schedule is changing due to the holidays and we just took son3 out of daycare so guess that is enough changes for now without me shaking everything up and applying for a promotion.... If I have to give an instant answer, my answer is no to be a supervisor... however it does feel good to be wanted... but mostly I feel guilty, cause when I tell them no my reason is to be home with the kids, well they all have young children too and they balance the kids and a career... actually when I was a single mom with son1 when he was 2-3yrs, I was a supervisor, how did I do it then... probably cause I just did and now I don't have to... just makes me mad too though that hubby didn't even bring it up this morning, as I knew he wouldn't discuss it unless I bring it up and this from a man who can talk about the weather and the price of gas for four hours but not important issues.... so we stuck to safe topics this morning of the boys and what they did at school this week and their plans for their four day weekend... It's the Gemini in me too, always needing to shake things up once in a while, changing my likes and dislikes, wants and needs.... So maybe in five to ten years when the boys are done with school, then I can figure out what I want to be when I grow up... With retirement age getting older and older every year, I'll still have a good twenty years left to work then, lol... I do wonder what the lesson is I am supposed to be learning each time I get all worked up over a supervisor opening... does it just bring back memories of losing my job four years ago and how thankful I am that I could keep my full time status and my benefits even though I lost a big chunk of pay... is it supposed to remind me to use better use of my time since I am able to come home early and I should do a better job of cleaning the house, lol.... or is it a lesson for hubby of some sort... I was feeling good about my shoe job lately even though the supervisor is annoying me with her unmotivation to be there, but I have been doing a better job of keeping my mouth shut, though I could still do better....

So today I put up the Thanksgiving decorations... I did a bit of cleaning... I read through everyone's blogs... I did a lot of thinking... Had many wise things to write but now it is dark and I am getting tired and can't remember what they were, lol... It was overcast today and even sprinkled a bit... I'm still a bit down but think it is safe for hubby to come home... We have some shows to catch up on for the week... The boys watched Kung Fu Panda twice today and Veggie Tales Lord of the Beans... Now they are back and forth on computer games and watching the Saturday Morning cartoons that I taped while we were having family breakfast time...
Tomorrow I work 6-2 I think, not sure as the schedule is never done when I leave on Fridays... Not as big an ad to set since I just set one up on Thursday... hopefully there is some coverage and I can finish catching up on the boxes and putting away the stockroom before we start getting the day after Thanksgiving shoe specials...
It is almost time for hubby to be home and I have a pile of laundry on the bed to put away and son3 is saying he is still hungry and son2 wants a turn on the Internet....
Happy Journaling...

Feeling better...

I'm feeling a bit better... and yes I always put the decision in God's hands, believe me I've been bugging him for four years on what I should do and I'm still not hearing his answer... so each time a position comes up, I wonder if that is him telling me to be a supervisor and I keep passing it up.... and I know for now, son3 is still only 7yrs old, and a few years more time when he is older would be better... I just don't know........ it's just nice to be wanted and seeked out for a promotion...

Ohhhhhhh... Ghost Whisperer was so sad!! I can't believe it.... I won't spoil it yet in case you haven't seen it yet....

Son2 finally got off the phone with his friend girl and friend boy, it was a three way call...

The boys are now all set up in the family room to sleep for the night... son3 is asking for a snack...

I've had too many snacks... pretzels, hubby's crackers, hot dogs with chili, popcorn... no wonder I drank a gallon of water, all that salt...

Dishes are done, except for the pans, the ants went to the water park in the dishwasher.... silly ants...

Hubby should be home any minute... off to tape Numbers for him...

Happy Journaling...

The Question...

I'm a bit grumpy today... maybe just tired... I was originally scheduled to work til 11am today but the other day they added training hours so we could finish up our computer training for the month... I only had a two minute test left to take on my list but never could get a free computer... another associate was supposed to work on training hours this morning as well but said she had already made plans and couldn't come in... originally it was only the supervisor scheduled today... she was the manager on duty... good thing I agreed to stay as I ended up being floor coverage for the day... so that made me a bit grumpy that I wasn't even scheduled and yet I was the only one there.... I mostly stocked the men's work boots and opened a few boxes, but otherwise I wasn't very motivated today...

Of course the day started with one of the managers that is my friend that got promoted saying she had a opening for a lead and that it wouldn't hurt for me to just post... now those of you that know me know that I was a supervisor for fifteen years until four years ago when they eliminated my position and there were no lead openings unless I transferred to another store plus the lead positions were changing hours that I wasn't able to adhere to due to the boys but I was lucky to keep my full time status and work in shoes.... Of course over the last four years they have wanted me to post for lead positions but with hubby working nights and me mornings, it is a good schedule for the boys... of course now the boys are getting older and hubby is working more days now...

Anyway I am always undecided when it comes to this question... Do I want to be a supervisor again....

Of course it would be more money but more hours and less time with the boys... I don't want to work until five or six.... I don't want to work most or every weekends... I don't want to work a closing night once a week... and yet even the position I am in now, if they followed the proper schedule instead of what I request, as a full time 30hours, I should be working those hours...

I don't want to be manager on duty and have to answer the phone and customer approvals and complaints, although I am sure over time I would get used to it again... however with my old lady hormones I don't do well with confrontation and I have no patience, lol...

Of all the positions that have come in the last four years, most of them I had already done as a supervisor, this position now would be Brand Central/large appliances and a higher position than what I had in the past...

Of all the managers the one who now has the department is my favorite to work for and I know she would give me good communication and training of all the new procedures I am not familiar with...

But at the same time I always tease her that we can't work together any more cause we always ask for the same weeks off for vacation... she has been with the company as long as me so we both get five weeks a year... of course as a lead my vacation can get cancelled at a moment's notice, where now as an associate I always get to take them... plus we both need Wednesday's off so I would have to put son3 back in daycare just for Wednesdays...

I don't want to be in shoes forever... and yet I'm stuck in a comfort zone...

My supervisor is making me mad... every day she comes in with an attitude that she doesn't want to be there and is it time to go home yet....

I called hubby and dropped the question in his lap, as usual he hesitated as he doesn't want me working all the hours... and yet he's not even working 40 hours at his full time job as a supervisor... doesn't one of us need to step up to earn more money, or just keep going on faith and charging up our credit cards... I lost $500 a month when I lost my supervisor position four years ago and now medical insurance is eating up half my paycheck and I don't want to count on it but when it comes it's handy... but I haven't received any past due child support from the ex for two months now....

However becoming a supervisor again isn't really about the money but what do I want to be when I grow up... And we don't really get to be whatever we want when we grow up especially when you have kids.... Hubby and I aren't really go getters but we are responsible and hard working....

However I'm mad at hubby for not being more supportive and I'm sure later he'll try to smooth it over and say I can do whatever I want but too late, he already hesitated so I know he has doubts... He's way too cautious sometimes....

So I'm just gonna sit here on my butte and sulk on the computer, while the ants crawl all over the dishes in the sink, the ants just showed up when the sun went down, and the boys fight over my old skateboard that son2 put some new wheels on and fix me and son3 some hot chocolate and it's time for jammies since it's dark outside....

Yay Ghost Whisperer comes on tonight... and Smallville and Supernatural were way good last night....

Son3 tried to ride the skateboard in the kitchen....... he's decided he doesn't want one now since the wheels made him fall.....

Son1 called yesterday morning while we were all at work and school, his message just said he would call back last night but he never did... I just found the message this afternoon...

Hubby went grocery shopping this morning and the checker forgot to give him the eggs....

I'm a week behind in reading blogs, hope to get caught up tonight and tomorrow but son2 wants some Internet time too...
He's on the phone with a girl right now.... she's just a friend...and he's emptying the dishwasher for me so he can have Internet time...

Off to find jammies and hot chocolate....

Happy Journaling...

Thursday...

Home from work... the boys are home from school... Son2 is helping son3 with homework... They are studying spelling words and son3 is trying to slip away... He also has a vocabulary test on their story tomorrow too... Son2 still needs to check if he has any homework, he usually doesn't... They want to be done so they can watch Get Smart again and play Heroscape... After tomorrow they have a four day weekend for the Veteran's holiday... So no homework for five days, yay! but I did tell son3 we were going to work in his practice book...

Heard we did fine on the visit at work yesterday... Today I had to set the ad again this week and then after lunch I never stopped moving, stocking all day and answering questions... Tomorrow I was supposed to be off at 11am, but I said I would stay til 2pm, not like I don't have plenty to do...

Last night I made a whole chicken for dinner, practicing for Thanksgiving, lol... I started hubby a shopping list for Thanksgiving for the grocery store... We finished watching Get Smart and watched Bones... I taped Criminal minds and CSI NY but we still have Criminal Minds from last week to watch... Tonight Smallville and Supernatural come on and CSI...

I have dishes calling and ants, yes we are still battling ants, would someone tell them it is winter time and they can hibernate now... I also need to get some bills in the mail before the holiday... We have left over chicken so dinner is easy... and homework is done and it isn't even 5pm.... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Now hopefully hubby gets home on time... Last night he got caught up cause another associate called out, so it took him an hour to get out the door... and then the car wouldn't start, so hopefully he fixed it today... son3 just told me that he went to school with the neighbor today as the car wouldn't start.... hmmmmmmm... well hubby and the car aren't here so he must have got it running... but wonder if that means it's fixed...

Happy Journaling...

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Everchanging Routine

The voting is done, I'm home from work and the boys are home from school... A bit of relaxing before we get to the homework and the sink full of dirty dishes and then hubby will be home and I'm thinking breakfast for dinner and we have the new Get Smart to watch tonight... On the way home there were people on various corners encouraging people to vote and on one corner was one guy with a sign that read vote Yes on 8(canceling gay marriage in California) and on the same corner four guys with a an American flag and a rainbow flag and a sign that read vote No on 8.... When the light would change the one guy with the yes sign would cross and then all the guys would follow right behind, lol....

Work was good today although I barely made a dent in all I wanted to do... We're still having the VIP's tomorrow in the afternoon... Today I wanted to stock the men's shoes, the men's work boots, open a ton of boxes, stock the women's hanging shoes and clear up some areas in the stockroom... I didn't even finish stocking the men's shoes, the day went so fast... But we are still way more ready then the last time when we lost control due to the remodel... Also at work there are talks of schedule changes, actually I've thought of it myself, as we are still trying to adhere to the correct way of how shoes should be as open sell instead of commission... So my days of 7am may be disappearing if they decide to try it... We're not supposed to schedule anyone before 10am, although the store opens at 9:30am... I just know I don't want to stay past 4:45pm... which I thought of even with eliminating the daycare... And then starting the week before Thanksgiving I will be working Saturday's until Christmas, which may mean I get Monday's off with hubby for a while again so we can Christmas shop... I just hope I can stay with Wednesday as my day off now... I'll need to update my availability as I'm full time 30hrs and need to be available so I don't go below 30hrs plus even be available to go up to 35-38hrs if needed... and to keep my medical insurance...


About a half hour before I left work today guess what they are now playing on the P.A. system.... CHRISTMAS MUSIC... half regular music and half Christmas, actually I expected to hear it when I went on Sunday as November had started... and it's really not too early as you only have three weeks to get those packages in the mail and then just four weeks til Christmas after that...
Now that all the Halloween hoopla and all the AOL hoopla is over I need to get back on routine of a few things... like the crunches and weight lifting I was doing so well... Now that I'm back to work from vacation, I'm back to eating yogurt and although I've been drinking two sodas a day instead of just one, I'm compensating with water... and son3 has got out of the habit of wearing his patch after school to strengthen his left eye, so got to get back on that... And I hate that it gets dark so early now... I run out of time to take pictures of the roses, yes they are still blooming and I'm ready for bed at 7pm when I still have things to do, lol... It's very windy today and finally the temps are in the 60's...It rained up til yesterday but mostly at night when I'm sleeping and can't see it... and Gas is $2.49, can you believe it....
Happy Journaling...

An Entry A Day...

Martha signed up for a challenge to do an entry every day for the month of November and then coaxed me to join in... lol... So I'm home from work, hubby ran off to the store really quick to exchange the windshield wipers for the car for the right ones... Son2 is setting up Heroscape and son3 is supposed to be doing his homework so he can play with son2... But since I'm not out there supervising, they are distracting each other... Yesterday while I was catching up on reading blogs and hubby was putting away Halloween, I made a roast with potatoes and peas; and riblets with broccoli and cauliflower... So we have leftovers for tonight... We also watched Wing Commander and the Simpson Halloween Special... Then got the boys settled for the night and hubby and I sat down to finish CSI and I fell asleep again not five minutes into it where we left off last time I fell asleep, lol... Work was good today and it did not even seem weird going in on a Monday... We're still having the visit on Wednesday but I only work tomorrow til 2 and then I have Wednesday off... yay... So when I go back on Thursday the visit is over and I can continue on with business as usual... I did have to finish setting the ad today, they were way busy yesterday and I guess they forgot to finish the signs I left for them, plus the asst. manager had them doing projects too... Also today I stocked a bit and opened a ton of boxes that were waiting for me while I was on vacation... Now hubby is back and I am off to help son3 with homework, heat up dinner, go over our choices for voting tomorrow and Terminator Sarah Conner comes on tonight...
Happy Journaling...

Oh The Drama!!!

Son3 has had a loose tooth for weeks, one of his top front teeth... actually a bottom tooth came out since this tooth has been loose... We keep telling him to wiggle it... Just having him let us look at it causes lots of crying and running and hiding... He was happy to go to the dentist, if it meant we would leave him alone... The last few days it has just been hanging by a root... If we could just get close enough and one quick pull and it would be out... I come home from work today and recognize the sounds of drama of hubby trying to get a look at the loose tooth... I retreat to the bedroom to change my clothes... I then hear louder crying and yelling from son3... However I hear laughter from son2 and hubby... I yell down the hall, is it finally out... Seems hubby had son3 working on wiggling it and so son2 passed by, hit son3's hand on purpose and out popped the tooth... We were rejoicing, son3 was beyond mad... However he is fine now and peace once more prevails over the house... I'm thinking the tooth fairy might owe him two dollars for this tooth....

I was back to work today... Only worked 6-12 but had to take a lunch and by 12:15 when I actually left I still wasn't done with the ad, so had to pass on to other associates, so hope they finished... and then the ad only runs til Wednesday and Thursday I have to set up a whole new ad.... We still have a visit on Wednesday so lots to do the next two days... And the only day I would have needed daycare this week if we still had it is Thursday for twenty minutes... All the other days I get off before school gets out... and then Thursday I'll use my backup plan, lol...

Hubby is busily putting away all the Halloween stuff... Son3 is now happily playing and eating nachos... I think son2 is on one of the game computers... I'm doing laundry, still have tons to put away... Now son3 is asking to play on the game computer... and trying to get son2 in trouble cause son2 didn't ask to go on the computer, lol... and I'm trying to think what I want to defrost for dinner... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.........

Happy Journaling...