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Saturday, November 8, 2008

Saturday Wallows...

You guys are great! Thanks for all the words of wisdom... I was still way grumpy this morning and had no patience for hubby, realized it is my grumpy week and breathing is dangerous for him right now... I have succumbed to the idea that I will stay in shoes... Hubby's schedule is changing again next month and my schedule is changing due to the holidays and we just took son3 out of daycare so guess that is enough changes for now without me shaking everything up and applying for a promotion.... If I have to give an instant answer, my answer is no to be a supervisor... however it does feel good to be wanted... but mostly I feel guilty, cause when I tell them no my reason is to be home with the kids, well they all have young children too and they balance the kids and a career... actually when I was a single mom with son1 when he was 2-3yrs, I was a supervisor, how did I do it then... probably cause I just did and now I don't have to... just makes me mad too though that hubby didn't even bring it up this morning, as I knew he wouldn't discuss it unless I bring it up and this from a man who can talk about the weather and the price of gas for four hours but not important issues.... so we stuck to safe topics this morning of the boys and what they did at school this week and their plans for their four day weekend... It's the Gemini in me too, always needing to shake things up once in a while, changing my likes and dislikes, wants and needs.... So maybe in five to ten years when the boys are done with school, then I can figure out what I want to be when I grow up... With retirement age getting older and older every year, I'll still have a good twenty years left to work then, lol... I do wonder what the lesson is I am supposed to be learning each time I get all worked up over a supervisor opening... does it just bring back memories of losing my job four years ago and how thankful I am that I could keep my full time status and my benefits even though I lost a big chunk of pay... is it supposed to remind me to use better use of my time since I am able to come home early and I should do a better job of cleaning the house, lol.... or is it a lesson for hubby of some sort... I was feeling good about my shoe job lately even though the supervisor is annoying me with her unmotivation to be there, but I have been doing a better job of keeping my mouth shut, though I could still do better....

So today I put up the Thanksgiving decorations... I did a bit of cleaning... I read through everyone's blogs... I did a lot of thinking... Had many wise things to write but now it is dark and I am getting tired and can't remember what they were, lol... It was overcast today and even sprinkled a bit... I'm still a bit down but think it is safe for hubby to come home... We have some shows to catch up on for the week... The boys watched Kung Fu Panda twice today and Veggie Tales Lord of the Beans... Now they are back and forth on computer games and watching the Saturday Morning cartoons that I taped while we were having family breakfast time...
Tomorrow I work 6-2 I think, not sure as the schedule is never done when I leave on Fridays... Not as big an ad to set since I just set one up on Thursday... hopefully there is some coverage and I can finish catching up on the boxes and putting away the stockroom before we start getting the day after Thanksgiving shoe specials...
It is almost time for hubby to be home and I have a pile of laundry on the bed to put away and son3 is saying he is still hungry and son2 wants a turn on the Internet....
Happy Journaling...

11 comments:

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

It sounds like you've made up your mind for now. I hope it works for you and you know there will be more chances later if that's what you want. Your family is important. Hope your Sunday is a great one. 'On Ya'- ma

Martha said...

I'm glad you made the decision you've made. Even just a few more years with your youngest will make a big difference for him - once he hits middle school you can move on, they are "big people" then and don't need us like they did in elementary school.
I hate it when I have all kinds of wonderfully profound things to write about and then can't remember!
See you after work tomorrow - my goal is to be finished with everything I need to do by the time you get home! :-)

a corgi said...

(we didn't get any rain today; it was beautiful, sunny, and warm; I just had to write that first or I'd forgot LOL)

I think you made the right decision to stay in shoes for the time being :)

enjoy the rest of the weekend :)

betty

Linda said...

Just stopping by to say hi since getting back. I think you have made the right decision Linda....absolutely. Family is precious :)

Pooh Hugs,
Linda

Chrissie said...

YIPPY!!! I knew you would decide to pick your family over a job well for now anyway. There's plenty of time for that 11yrs down the road when son3 graduates. DO NOT feel guilty ever about picking your family. You're a great mom and wife and I think that says a lot about you. Now mind you I'm not knocking anybody out there that has no other choice, but to work. People can work and be great moms too. It's just so much nicer and easier on the kids IF they know you will be around some.
I'm glad you are seeing the plus in what time you have been given with your family. Don't take it for granted it passes so quickly. One day the boys are grown and they won't need you anymore... okay maybe just grown up.. I haven't experienced the not need you part YET. LOL.
I LOVED Kung Fu Panda and I had to watch it at home alone. Son came in and asked me if I watched any movies for the night and I told him that and he laughed. I watched it because I wanted to.
I want to watch that Beverly Hills Chihuahua. Kyan wants to watch it he loves dog movies. He tells me he wants to see that Itchy Itchy Waa Waa movie... is that not funny.
Wow you're moving on putting out the deco already. I may just skip straight to Christmas and be like the stores.
Well nobody has to fight me over the net anymore. I have to get on when I'm suppose to be sleeping.
Okay will I think I'm caught up with you for a second. Hope you have a great day at work. I know how crazy things are getting with Black Friday approaching. Lauren works at Bath and Body Works in the mall and she is running over working. She is on early call in and they call her everytime. So she's working like 10hr days. She told me it's kicking her butt. So I can imagine how your store is doing.
I guess I'll look around a minute more and then I need to get to bed it's now 438am Sunday here.
Hugs, Chrissie

Barb said...

Good answer! I often wonder sometimes which lesson it is that I am suppose to be learning when things happen....like me taking that insurance job.....why? When I go back to work I am thinking of going back to my cashiers job....It was more me....maybe it is because soon there will be insurance jobs at this place. I agree with everyone when they say that you just need to spend as much time as you can with the boys. You already have one who is making it on his own, and I know you miss him. Son2 and Son3 will grow up fast and you need that time with them....besides....sometimes more money plus more headaches just ain't worth it. I have turned down a few promotions with a simple no thank you and they will look at you like they think you have lost it....but we both know that it just means someone else will be doing that....you are making a wise decision....as far as Thanksgiving decorations go.....I think I might have a leave I can hang on the wall....thinking I could just write Happy Thanksgiving on it LOL.
I want to put up my Christmas tree already too.
Ok now that I have written an entry into your comments. :) xoxBarb

lisa jo said...

maybe you and Bill can find a time to REALLY talk things over. It is always so NICE to find out that the mgrs think you are competent and that they'd want you to be in a supervising position. I wouldn't feel guilty one bit if it was me. Everyone has different needs/lives and reasons for things.
It is cold in Ohio today. Phooey.XO

Barbara said...

Remember, you can't judge what is right for you and yours by what other people are doing. I'm glad you are feeling better about it all. I hope you can settle in and enjoy yourself. Down the road, maybe a few months, maybe a few years, it might be very right for you to apply for any and every advancement.

Pamela said...

You have great hours right now. I think you made the right decision considering you still have the younger ones. JMO.
Have a good day.
Pam

Jeannette said...

I'm sure that job will crop up again when it's more convenient for you to take it on. You did it when you were younger, I think we just get on and cope with it when we're young. As we get older we think things through and make a more rational decision! I hope your weekend has gone well. Sorry I'm a bit behind in reading journals but last week was my first full week at work since September! Jeannette xx

Tina said...

"breathing is dangerous for him right now..." That cracked me up. It probably wasn't amusing for you at the time you were writing it, but it was funny to me, because I understand so well how it gets like that sometimes.

I don't think that you will ever regret the times in your life where you put your family first!