October Eighth

 

Below are my facebook updates about hubby the last few days…

Oct 5th

Back from visiting Bill... He had to have an ultrasound done on his kidneys but they checked out fine, so just reaction from the surgery and it will work itself out in a few days... He was sitting in a chair and shaving when I got there... he called this morning to ask me to bring some tang/lemonade powder to add to his water as the hospital food all tastes yucky to him... lol... he is being such a patient with his wants/needs with the nurses... I walked with him up and down the hall; I made him go farther than they had told him to go the day before... and after getting him settled back in bed they gave him some morphine and brought his lunch... since any medicine they give him causes him to fall asleep, I left early again today... he'll call later when he wakes up though... they are saying maybe he can go home tomorrow...

Oct 6th

Cleaning the house while waiting for Bill to call... they won't let him come home til the bowels are moving... so I'm staying home today so he can concentrate, lol...

Bill just called... he didn't have a good night but this morning he has shaved and brushed his teeth... went a whole four laps walking around hallway... and the air is finally passing causing him to feel a whole lot better... so now just waiting to hear from the doctor if he can go home this afternoon...

Bill just called to tell me he'll probably be calling later to come pick him up but he doesn't know for sure but probably..........

I'm off to pick up Bill...

Oct 7th

Bill had a good night, even slept in the bed, didn't even need to be propped up... Today he has been up and about, shaving, showering, making his own breakfast, snacks, drinks and lots of resting time on the couch... No Nurse Linda needed here...

Oct 8th

Bill Update: It only hurts when he laughs... which is very fun for us...

What I've been waiting for... Bill's first sneeze! It was a doozie... Chris, Frank and I laughed... Bill laughed too... Owwwwwwwwww... lol... we're so mean...

Now this afternoon we have just been watching all the shows I taped all week while hubby was in the hospital… Terra Nova, Castle, How I Met Your Mother, Mike and Molly, Hawaii Five O… still to go Big Bang Theory, Person of Interest, The Mentalist and Fringe… Right now we are up to Hawaii Five O…

I’m making spaghetti and meatballs for dinner… made son3 pizza for lunch… made bean soup and fried chicken yesterday… tomorrow I’ll make chicken alfredo… trying to have enough for leftovers throughout the week since I will be back to work and getting off later since I will be taking son3 to school in the morning… son2 will be picking him up…

Son1 and fiance are off to a BBQ… Son2 is watching the shows with us… and son3 is playing his video games…

On this day, God wants you to know

... that freedom is within, not without. Freedom is much misunderstood as freedom from something, as outward facing. Such freedom is illusory. Real freedom is freedom from mental sins of desire, hate, prejudice. Real freedom brings peace, grace, bliss.

On this day, God wants you to know

... that when you ask for advice, ask from those who had achieved mastery themselves. Ask advice on relationships only from friends who have deeply fulfilling relationships. Ask money advice only from those who are wealthy themselves. Ask advice on kids from your parents only if you are happy with the way you've been raised.

Happy Journaling…

October Fifth

Below are my facebook posts from the last few days of hubby’s surgery updates… After two nights of sleep I’m starting to feel a bit better today… I was exhausted… So I hope to be back later today with a proper post… I’m having a bit of trouble with the start up menus on my laptop as half of them have disappeared along with half my programs although I see them in other folders so they are hopefully still there just can’t access them from start up… I did back up all my photos to a flash drive just in case… but as long as I can still get online I don’t want to mess with it just yet… may just take it to the Geek Squad so I don’t make it worse… I think it is because I have been hard closing my laptop because it has not been shutting down properly… according to some research I did… I’m getting an error message of 0x8007000d… Off to start my day and get son3 ready for school… It’s still raining… Love it…

Oct, 3rd

Surgery went well... It was done by 11:15am... recovery took longer as he had missed his blood pressure medication causing a rapid heart rate... so I wasn't able to see him til 1:30pm... then it was still 5pm before he was completely settled... and then 7pm before they got him settled in a room under observation for the night... I finally got home to the boys who had done a great job all day taking care of each other and getting Jacob to school, homework done and Frank made dinner... We're now settled for the night and I'll be back to visit Bill in the morning after getting the boys to school... The doctor said he got all the prostate and the lymph nodes and he feels good that all the cancer was got... Bill barely woke up all day with all the extra medication for the rapid heart rate so tomorrow I'll let him know how the day went...

Oct, 4th

Brought Bill his bags he had packed before surgery and some sunflowers to cheer him... He was awake when I got there and had had clear liquids for breakfast... he said he was awake on and off throughout the night so he watched a bit of TV... he is still in the observation room... his heart rate and blood pressure are fine now... however they are keeping an eye on his blood count and still may need some blood before he leaves... and they are watching his kidneys which should improve as he drinks more... he did sit up for a bit with his feet over the side of the bed... and he had soft foods for lunch... I was going to visit til 2pm so I could pick up Jacob from school but they gave Bill some Vicodin and he was falling asleep so I left early at 1pm instead... Thank you for all the wonderful messages, emails, comments, good thoughts and love!!

Bill just called!!!!!!! after I left him and he had his Vicodin nap, they got him up and walking down the hall and shaving and when
he was talking to me on the phone he was sitting in a chair... now he is getting back in bed to get ready for dinner and watch TV...

Oct, 5th

Bill called again last night to say good night... He had a visit from his brother Barry and Mel... and then another three hour nap... which allowed him to be awake for some TV time where as I was going to bed... I'm feeling much more rested today... And it's Pouring outside!! I love it! Two boys out the door this morning and one to go... I have to go to work for an hour or so to make next week's department schedule, then to visit Bill and pick up Jacob as it's early day...

On this day, God wants you to know

... that when the sun rises, it rises for you. Yes, for you. Just for you. Only for you. You are it, everything, the whole universe with all the billion galaxies and stars. The separateness you feel is only a mask you have put on to enjoy this human form. Under the mask, your shape is All. How far can you now feel your Self expand? To your parent?... to your child?... to your friend?... to a stranger on a street?... half way around the globe?

On this day, God wants you to know

... that you are to trust yourself. If you do not, then you will forever be looking to others to prove your own merit to you, and you will never be satisfied. You will always be asking others what to do and at the same time resenting their help. Trust in yourself starts with being ok with the consequences of your decisions.

Happy Journaling…

October Second

Tomorrow is hubby’s surgery to have his prostate removed due to prostate cancer… Surgery is at 8am and will last about four hours… I worked this weekend and I am now on vacation for a week… Hubby will be in the hospital for about three to four days… I had planned to blog every day to share our ups and downs over the last couple of weeks… but instead I was busy at work and then home to dinner and spend the evening with hubby and the boys… I went through the crying stage and the mad stage… now I’m in the acceptance/numb stage…  My goal now is to just get through tomorrow…

On this day, God wants you to know

... that it's ok to be there for yourself. Amidst all the expectations, demands, requests, take some time to ground yourself in God. Take some time for yourself.

On this day, God wants you to know

... that your ability to receive is equally important to your ability to give. Have you ever brought a special gift, working hard just to get it, only to be refused by the person you were giving it to? That didn't feel right, did it? Our relationships are greatly enhanced when we become not only generous givers, but generous receivers as well. When we know how to accept gladly, wholeheartedly, embracing the gift as an extension of the giver. It takes both giving and receiving for care and generosity to flow unimpeded.

On this day, God wants you to know

... that your task is not to seek for love, but to seek and melt all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. God loves you with the very air you breathe, the very light that touches your skin, the very ground that supports you. Love is everywhere, - melt your barriers, and you will have love in abundance.

On this day, God wants you to know

... that you don't go to find meaning in life, you bring meaning to your life. Meaning isn't something out there waiting for you to discover. The meaning of your life is what you infuse it with - beauty or ugliness, happiness or sadness. It is totally your choice, and God wants it to be your choice because God gave you free will.

On this day, God wants you to know

... that when you create peace within your own being, it radiates out into the world. The world becomes a more peaceful place one person at a time.

On this day, God wants you to know

... that this world is filled with beauty. Allow yourself time to be nourished with the beauty of this world. Watch the sun rise, gaze at the ripples of water on the lake, listen to the songbirds, feel the breath of the breeze, glory in the colors of the sunset, feel the magic of the moon. This beauty is the air for your soul.

On this day, God wants you to know

... that there are no bad people, only people with bad ideas. Have compassion towards such people, and help them sober up from the influence of bad ideas.

Happy Journaling…