October Fifth

Below are my facebook posts from the last few days of hubby’s surgery updates… After two nights of sleep I’m starting to feel a bit better today… I was exhausted… So I hope to be back later today with a proper post… I’m having a bit of trouble with the start up menus on my laptop as half of them have disappeared along with half my programs although I see them in other folders so they are hopefully still there just can’t access them from start up… I did back up all my photos to a flash drive just in case… but as long as I can still get online I don’t want to mess with it just yet… may just take it to the Geek Squad so I don’t make it worse… I think it is because I have been hard closing my laptop because it has not been shutting down properly… according to some research I did… I’m getting an error message of 0x8007000d… Off to start my day and get son3 ready for school… It’s still raining… Love it…

Oct, 3rd

Surgery went well... It was done by 11:15am... recovery took longer as he had missed his blood pressure medication causing a rapid heart rate... so I wasn't able to see him til 1:30pm... then it was still 5pm before he was completely settled... and then 7pm before they got him settled in a room under observation for the night... I finally got home to the boys who had done a great job all day taking care of each other and getting Jacob to school, homework done and Frank made dinner... We're now settled for the night and I'll be back to visit Bill in the morning after getting the boys to school... The doctor said he got all the prostate and the lymph nodes and he feels good that all the cancer was got... Bill barely woke up all day with all the extra medication for the rapid heart rate so tomorrow I'll let him know how the day went...

Oct, 4th

Brought Bill his bags he had packed before surgery and some sunflowers to cheer him... He was awake when I got there and had had clear liquids for breakfast... he said he was awake on and off throughout the night so he watched a bit of TV... he is still in the observation room... his heart rate and blood pressure are fine now... however they are keeping an eye on his blood count and still may need some blood before he leaves... and they are watching his kidneys which should improve as he drinks more... he did sit up for a bit with his feet over the side of the bed... and he had soft foods for lunch... I was going to visit til 2pm so I could pick up Jacob from school but they gave Bill some Vicodin and he was falling asleep so I left early at 1pm instead... Thank you for all the wonderful messages, emails, comments, good thoughts and love!!

Bill just called!!!!!!! after I left him and he had his Vicodin nap, they got him up and walking down the hall and shaving and when
he was talking to me on the phone he was sitting in a chair... now he is getting back in bed to get ready for dinner and watch TV...

Oct, 5th

Bill called again last night to say good night... He had a visit from his brother Barry and Mel... and then another three hour nap... which allowed him to be awake for some TV time where as I was going to bed... I'm feeling much more rested today... And it's Pouring outside!! I love it! Two boys out the door this morning and one to go... I have to go to work for an hour or so to make next week's department schedule, then to visit Bill and pick up Jacob as it's early day...

On this day, God wants you to know

... that when the sun rises, it rises for you. Yes, for you. Just for you. Only for you. You are it, everything, the whole universe with all the billion galaxies and stars. The separateness you feel is only a mask you have put on to enjoy this human form. Under the mask, your shape is All. How far can you now feel your Self expand? To your parent?... to your child?... to your friend?... to a stranger on a street?... half way around the globe?

On this day, God wants you to know

... that you are to trust yourself. If you do not, then you will forever be looking to others to prove your own merit to you, and you will never be satisfied. You will always be asking others what to do and at the same time resenting their help. Trust in yourself starts with being ok with the consequences of your decisions.

Happy Journaling…